LOVE : a meaningless beautifull story

I had this crush on this guy.. and i feel so ashamed for it wasn't suppose to happen.
But, some old says that its best to love than to never be in love... guess he was right.

Crushing and falling again is exciting feelings, and it gave you a booze on how you spend your days. Your head is full of him, always thinking how was he doing, on and on.

But the bad thing about being in love is, it started to take control of your feelings.. making you restless, at least that is how i felt.

So here what's goin on.. I tend to get over faster when I told him how I feel. So yes... its the chase that gets me excited. And if he's the one who told me first, than it would be like a premature ejaculation for me.

But this certain person get me goin tho... for he got the most amazing smile I've ever seen in a normal people, aka not a celebrity or something. He told me once that my love blinded me... ha ha ha I guess he's right. He got this moody and lazy *but in good looking kind of way), that really keeps me going. Wow.. and everytime he smiled....I just... lovin it. And since my motto is NEVER REGRET WHAT YOU MIGHT REGRET, I then told him the way I feel, regardless if he's feeling the same way or not, I just told him.

Two days later.... he told me that I'm not as fun as I used to be, yeah talking about bathing in a cold water... But it made me to re-think about what I'm feeling inside. Do I really like him (in falling in love kind of way), or is it because he's not feeling the same that keeps me going. HHHMMMMMMM. Anyway, I regain my control, and remember what my best friend kept telling me : CINTA ITU CERITA INDAH TIADA ARTI , LOVE IS A MEANIGLESS BEAUTIFULL STORY, great at the beginning and suck at the end (hhhmmm really?????).

After four days not talking to him (which i found my self three new friends who's one is so pathetic at talking english, and the other one told me he loved me after teo hours chatting??? (guess he was just trying to get in to my pants... lol), I found my self I'm over him bit by bit... yeayyyyy... But when i saw his smile again, i smile to my self... I might be over him, but i wont be over the smile....

So to my beloved writer ..... I found my self so brave and proud that I could tell you just how I feel, but then again you were so right that this is just not meant to be, and I guess we're sucks at waiting for each other, and believe me for what i said was true, but I guess its better for me to get over you.


That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it

*copy and paste from so over it by mcphee*